Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery.

I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard. I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far.

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side, so I don't get hurt.

Because of you, I find it hard to trust. Not only me, but everyone around me. Because of you, I am afraid.

I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes.

I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life. My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.

I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep. I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.

You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain. And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.

Because of you, I tried my hardest just to forget everything. Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in.

Because of you, I am afraid...

A Fisherman Life

Kehidupan yang mereka lalui adalah satu kehidupan yang sungguh unik. Dimana, mereka seolah-olah mengabdikan diri untuk laut. Rezeki mereka adalah dari lautan, lautanlah yang memberi mereka sumber pendapatan. Betapa mereka tidak mengira apapun keadaan cuaca, panas, hujan, itu adalah sesuatu yang lumrah bagi mereka. Jika dibandingkan dengan kehidupan yang kita ada, kita patut merasa bersyukur, kita bekerja mengikut masa, cukup waktu, kita balik. Kita tidak terdedah oleh apapun keadaan cuaca, kita punya cuti yang tetap. Tetapi, ada antara kita seolah-olah masih tidak tahu untuk bersyukur, kita inginkan sesuatu yang lebih walaupun kita telah mendapat apa yang selayaknya. Nelayan, mereka tidak merungut sebab itulah kehidupan yang harus mereka lalui.

Dan ini menyedarkan aku, betapa aku tidak harus merungut dengan kehidupan yang aku lalui. Dalam kehidupan ini juga, aku seperti seorang nelayan, yang berhempas-pulas melawan perasaan aku sendiri. Perasaan yang membelenggu naluriku. Aku seperti nelayan yang hidup di tengah-tengah lautan manusia yang mempamerkan pelbagai rentak kehidupan. Aku seperti nelayan yang tidak pernah jemu untuk mencari sesuap harapan untuk terus bertahan. Sesungguhnya ketabahan inilah yang membuatkan aku seperti hari ini.

If You Ask and I Will Answer

1. My Guy-Q?
He is roaming in reality. I am the person who is so particular about words, I can write a dictionary for every words you have said to me, only I think what is important and the rest is history!

2. What “guy qualities” do it for me?
I picked Mr. Sensitive! He’s about as comfortable and friendly as an old pair of Levi’s jeans and will more than likely never break my heart.

3. Do I Know How To Flirt?
I am charming with caution. I guess, my motto is ‘I’ll let him know I’m interested, but I won’t throw myself at him’, hell No!! Well, being nice is nice but I hope some people will not misinterpret my just-plain-friendliness.

4. Are my looks helping me?
I think I know how to look slammin’ without going over the top. I hope people will appreciate my simple style and classy ways. For some people, they go for someone who know how to look good without living in front of the mirror.

5. Am I too man-crazy?
Not interested. Most likely, I have a wide variety of interests, which I think it should be considered as healthy.

6. Am I a babe?
Yes I am. Why? I am very appealing to a man and have a great inner beauty and strength as well as physical attractiveness. I take pride in my appearance and like a man who appreciates it! I like being accepted as a person rather than a sex symbol and I like a man who is intelligent as well as good looking.

A Mind of A Child

What I would like to see in my aged parents/grandparents.

I am a boy. Boy is a boy. Girl is a girl but I am not a girl. Why I am not a girl is because I am a boy. A very good boy. I have a sister and three parents. Two mothers and one father. They are mad people and I am their mad child. We are all mad.

When they are old, I am hoping that they have earned a lot of money by then. Money is money. Not money is not money. Money is good so I like money. When they are old they will not need so much money so I can take all their money and use.

Because of my three parents, there are more of them to take care of each other. I can go and use all their money as they do not need the money. They can go and play chess or sing songs together.

Sampai Menutup Mata

Embun di pagi buta

Menebarkan bau asa

Detik demi detik ku hitung

Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai

Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta

Aku tak mudah mengatakan

Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta

Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau

Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta

Sampai ku menutup mata

Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

Mereka Bilang dan Aku Bilang

Mereka bilang cinta itu harus memiliki

Aku bilang cinta itu tidak seharusnya dimiliki

Mereka bilang bila cinta harus menuruti

Aku bilang bila cinta harus memahami

Mereka juga bilang cinta itu kegembiraan

Aku juga bilang cinta itu keindahan

Mereka bilang lagi cinta itu buta

Aku bilang lagi cinta itu satu doa

Mereka seterusnya bilang bila tiada cinta, segalanya dilupai

Aku terus bilang bila tiada cinta, segalanya akan aku ingati

Terus mereka bilang lagi bila cinta pudar, mereka jadi benci

Terus aku diam dan menjadi sepi

The Way It Will Be

In life we have some best pictures of ourselves. We took it during some occasion that given us such a wonderful memory. Time past by but the memory remains forever. Good or bad memory it will never leave our life, it will never fade away by times. Yes, it’s true ‘What is past is past, time will never make it come back’ but ‘Memory is still a memory, it will remains forever in the heart’. I just sat in my room, and my mind start thinking, what have I done with my life lately? I was so desperate to looking into something again, but it was suddenly gone. Before, I wish that it will turn back like before and I do something that might just take a minute to build it up again. I left it to how I was feeling and bcoz of this I always thought relationships were about feelings of appreciating each other. But it was not, it is sophisticated. And it got worse and worse. Finally, I decided to leave it as it is and I was going to make sure I treated it like it was.

Proton MPV Exora

First PROTON MPV will be named as PROTON EXORA. The name Exora is a derived from a flower call Ixora, this flower is commonly see in most bushes or shrubbery around the country. Ixora is a genus fromt he family Rubiaceae and is a tropical plant. In Malay, they call as Jarum and common English names are West Indian Jasmine, Jungle flame, Jungle geranium.

The price for Exora is RM72K (Exora ML (A/T) (Tentative) and RM76K (Exora HL (A/T) (Tentative) both with an automatic transmission, excluding accessories, road tax and insurance. Available in 5 colours; Genetic Silver, Tranquility Black, Blue Haze, Pyrite Brown and Gaia Blue. It will feature a maximum of 2 airbags for safety purposes. The 7 seater will have 15 inch tyres as a standard fit, with either automatic or manual transmissions. Engine will be 1.6 litre CamPro that is currently fitted into Gen-2. Does she looks gorgeous from the outside?, specially this white colour!

Steering Audio Switches. The switch stations or play CD's without fingers leaving the steering wheel. The redline of 7,000rpm for the RPM meter and 2 displays below each meter. Left - a digital fuel meter and digital temp meter as well as various other multi-info reading.