Late Night Thinker

oooOOooo it's almost 1 o'clock in the morning.  I'm still sitting infront of my desktop and thinking about...nothing at all.  Tomorrow I have exam, my second paper, drinking 2 cup of coffee to make my eyes widely open!!

Nothing much happen in my life,  my life's macam graph 'mendatar'.  I remember once, one of my fren said that 'I sik suka havoc2' uhuhuhu....last time I never think of anything about what that person said eventhought I know that person 'sindir' my life la kan....I accept it without regret.  But now, when I think about it again, helooooo...it's up to people bha what they want to do with their own life.  Havoc or not, they didn't give you a damn shit about it kan, so why must you sindir people like that.

Once people said that you are too emotional...what will you do?  My answer is simple...it's your feeling....showing your sad feeling is good to release your stress.  Sometimes in life, you have to be the real you, be as what you are and live your life sincerely.  Be a realistic kind of person and avoid being the hypocrite.   One word to make it together...."stay-strong"!!

Well, gotta go....gudnite peeps and sweet dream, don't think too much about me...ehehe (perasan la me =b) daaaaa....


luv YuNNa...muahhhsssZZZZZZZZZ

Truly Life is ....

 Picture taken from Curtin University Annual Dinner 2011

Life isn't about keeping score.  

It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated or dating, or haven't dated at all. 

It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.

It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.

 In fact, it's not about your grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not.

Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.

Life just isn't about that....

But  life is about who you love and who you hurt.

It's about how you feel about yourself.

It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.

It's about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence.

It's about what you say and what you mean.

It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.

Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.

These choices are what life is all about...

Falls of November

 End of November Coming for December

 Hi peeps!!

Its been a while I haven't update my blog.  Sorry because I've made my blog invisible for those of you, who always visiting my blog.  Recently,  I've been thinking about what mistake I've made from my past.  I know past is past and it will never come back, but I still believe that the future is always for tomorrow. 

Hmm...life is quite busy now a days.  Further my studies; doing so many assignment, attending classes and doing class presentation.   December is coming, bundle-up with own revision as the final exam is around the corner.  I wondering, I start my semester middle of September, then the final exam is in December.  I still keep on thinking, the time is really-really short to cover all the syllabus.  I'm taking 3 subjects for this semester, Introduction to Psychology, English for Oral Communication and Learning Skills for Open and Distance Learners.  I remember doing the assignment for these 3 subjects, all of em required to be completed within a month with at least 2500 words.  Wow!! sometimes I feel its ridiculous but in other part, it teach me how to manage my time and this is what I need to be prepared as a partime student.  Finally and luckily, I've submitted all of them before the due date occur, done with my class presentation and oral test (MUET).

See you again because I need to get back with my office's work.  Half way for my PMP, next week will have interviewed with my boss....daaa!!  =b

TGIF - Thanks God It's Friday

Yepss...it's Friday!! Can't wait to have end of the weekdays...waiting for Saturday and Sunday!!

Today, I start thinking about what am I'm going to do over the weekends...hmmm...hopefully it will not be packed as like last weekend.  My brain is thinking about;  Hub will be off to work on Saturday and Sunday. Maybe sending my Google to Funland or just maybe staying home entertain her watching new cartoon's movie...watching in my bedroom n it will be sooo nice...got aircond...close the blind!! so romantic, just me and my Google and hopefully, it will be raining on that day!! then I fall to sleep coz hebat banget kannn....sejuk la tu...biasala jakun...ahahaha!!!

And now is 5.12pm, I got some pictures on my mind for my weekend activities:

 Baking

 Cooking new recipe

Gardening

Paint the Wall @ level 1 which is my 2nd living room

Window Shopping but with who then??

Now it's 5.27 and I'm still here sitting and thinking about today is Friday!!opsss!! I need to go to Emart buying sayur and fishes!!

Happy Friday Peeps!!! Have a nice weekend!!

God Bless us all always!!!

Luv is not for wanted but it's for needed!!
Luv luv is in the air!!

YuNNa

XOX

This photo will be called 'Environment Friendly' aka 'Mesra Alam'

Hi peeps!! we meet again....last few days I've posted about Thomas the pussycat.  Andddd today I've a really2 great day (even I got alot of work that need to be completed, goshh!! my minutes?? have to complete it by this Friday), like everyday is a gud day for me...ehehe!!  Well, what will you tell bout life?  Everything about life is sumthing that you can't explain with words or cannot be explained!!  Life is unforgetable just like the memory that will remains forever in the heart.

Today, I've deleted some people in my facebook.  Not that I hate them or what so everrr.  It just that, I think, what for I keep them inside my profile if they seldom communicate with me, even when you write 1 comment, they will never reply you back or even say 'thank you'...plsss!! and when you greet them in the chat box...they will never try to be frenly with you...and then 'duhhh' what kind of person is this? ooor 'helllooo' if I greet you in the chatbox...it doesn't mean that I like you.  Hye!! grow-up ok!!

Haiya...when you trying to be nice to people also...people will think negatively.  This type of people should be marked as 'Brain Damage'.  To tell you the truth that I'm one kind of person who are really2 'mesra alam' aka 'environment frenly'..so please don't think I have a feeling if I talk nice or when sumtime I will get concern on you...I am frenly but I'm not the type of person that easily falling in love to anyone...oh please-lah...I don't know why sum people will always think negatively over me...

You have your life and I have mine...So we live our own life as what we want it to be!!

Hidup Dengan Semangat Yang Tinggi

Walau apapun keadaan yang melanda, hidup mesti diteruskan.  Selagi aku hidup, selama itulah aku harus berdiri.  Sebab hidup adalah satu anugerah dan hidup adalah satu ciptaan Tuhan yang harus dijalani dengan bijaksana.  Masalah, dugaan dan kesedihan itu adalah satu kebiasaan dan lumrah kehidupan, setiap kita harus merasai dan mengalaminya,  walaupun sedikit tapi ia tetap akan ada dan tiada seorang pun antara kita yang hidupnya sungguh sempurna.  Sebab kita bukan malaikat atau

pari-pari...

Bercerita tentang masalah yang senantiasa ada, dan masalah juga mengambil masa untuk diselesaikan.  Hari ini masalahnya lain, esok lain dan hari-hari yang akan datang pastinya ia tetap berbeza, tetapi kadang kala ia tetap sama.  Kecil atau besar jika ia memeningkan kepala, ia tetap akan dipanggil masalah.  Tetapi bagi aku, walaupun sebesar mana atau sekecil mana sekalipun, ia akan tetap membuatkan hidup kita tergoyang, kepala pusing dan hati resah.  Tetapi, apa yang penting jangan terbawa-bawa dengan masalah, sebab tiada masalah yang tidak dapat diselesaikan.  Salah satu caranya; jangan terlalu memikirkannya dan anggaplah apa yang terjadi adalah takdir, fikirlah lebih kepada kebaikan daripada keburukan, belajar dari apa yang terjadi sebab tiada manusia tidak pernah berbuat silap, dan mempunyai rasa sabar yang tinggi adalah penting dalam hidup ini...

Kisah dugaan yang datang silih berganti dan memang tidak pernah berkesudahan.  Seperti tingginya gunung dan rendahnya lautan.  Dugaan tetap akan datang dan tetap akan datang tanpa mengira masa, waktu dan ketika.  Jangan ratapi dengan tangisan tetapi indahkannya dengan doa, doa pasti akan membuatkan kita tabah.  Bila kita tabah, kita juga akan kuat.  Bila kita kuat, kita akan dapat mengatasinya, bila kita dapat mengatasinya kita akan menjadi seorang yang bersemangat tinggi.  Ketabahan adalah paling penting bila dugaan datang melanda.  Tiada siapa yang dapat memberi ketabahan untuk kita selain dari diri kita sendiri...

Kesedihan itu seperti lagu yang penuh dengan nada yang syahdu.  Seperti ketika kita bercinta, kita pasti akan berharap dengan pasangan kita tapi bila harapan itu tinggal harapan lalu hubungan pun terputus, dan terakhirnya kita akan bersedih memikirkannya.  Siapa yang tidak sedih jika apa yang diharapkan tidak menjadi kenyataan.  Hancur dan luluhnya perasaan hanya Tuhan yang tahu.  Jika boleh kita inigin meraung sekuat hati, biar satu dunia tahu betapa hancurnya perasaan kita.  Tapi akhirnya, kita pendam untuk diri kita sendiri.  Sedih bukan??  Tetapi tidak semua orang dapat menyembunyikan kesedihan.  Memang sukar untuk meluahkan kesedihan, jarang menunjukkan betapa sedihnya hati, betapa luluh dan tergurisnya perasaan ini.  Semuanya tersimpan hanya untuk tatapan sendiri, bukan tidak percaya tapi itu terjadi sebab kita sudah biasa menempuhinya seorang diri.  Jika terluah pun, mungkin sedikit, mencari sahabat untuk meluahkannya, itu sudah memadai, bila ia sudah terluah maka hilanglah rasa sedih, walaupun sebahagian tapi kelegaan tetap akan dirasai...

Masalah - dugaan - kesedihan sudah tidak ada bezanya, cuma yang penting kita mesti kuatkan semangat, tabahkan hati dan sentiasa mengingatkan diri kita, hidup sememangnya begitu dan apa yang terjadi adalah kehendak Tuhan.  Jika kita buat silap sekalipun, kita harus sedar dan bangkit kembali menjadi diri sendiri, bukan hidup untuk menjadi orang lain.  Dan selepas itu atau sebaik-baiknya jangan ulangi dan belajar dari apa yang telah kita lalui...

Hi Again

This picture taken recently, having holiday at hubby's kampung is so much fun.  The friendliness, clean-air, nature and a nice family member (cousins, aunties, nenek, atuk n all the relatives at kampung).  Taking bath with air gunung,  mandi sungai, site viewing at ladang and around kampung with motosikal and everyday watching itik-ayam kampung.  Cooking at cute little wooden kitchen.  How great life can be....hmmm..missing them so damn much!! 

Will update you more with lots of pictures =)

"Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheek, I run away and hide from it.  But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me.  And I don't know what to do.  I just know that pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten time more"

Imperfection

I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied to my friends. I've hidden the truth so many times from so many people. I've hurt people, and I've even done it on purpose. I've left people behind. I've said things that I didn't mean. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't.

Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes. I'll, more often than not, take the easy way out. I will lie, hide the truth, hurt people, leave people behind,  and say things I don't mean for the rest of my life.

Life Live With No Regrets

Hi peeps!!  we meet again...wishing you all in a very gud condition. 

Live with intention.  Walk to the edge.  Listen hard.  Practice wellness.  Play with abandon.  Laugh.  Choose with no regret.  Continue to learn.  Appreciate your friends.  Do what you love.  Live as if this is all there is.

I wanted a perfect ending.  Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end.  Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it,  without knowing what's to happen next.

In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need.  To teach you, to hurt you, to love you and make you exactly the way you should be.

Luv,

YuNNa



Questions and Simple Answers

i am just me

I want to put a little word about our daily behavior,  if you want to talk about people, bad or their weaknesses, get a mirror, look at yourself or sit silence in one corner of your room, then think what have you done to some people around you, your friends, family and love ones.............and ask deeply inside of you 'Am I perfect enough to say those words 'bout them?"

~ Think good, talk good and act good is a perfect enough for you. 

We always see weaknesses in other people and we lack of our self-review.  Like, everything is about us is good and perfectly perfect.  But when people saw our weaknesses, we'll curl-up and said 'It was only a small mistake'.  But, one mistake does not guarantee that it will happen once but honestly it will be repeated, right?

~  Accept weaknesses in you and try to change a little.  Don't always judge people by its appearance.

Indeed, we have weaknesses and shortcomings, and it cannot be denied.  In this wide-world everyone made mistake, from our action to words we used every day.  However, everyone has the right to change to be a better person and to be forgiven.  Isn't forgiveness is the best thing to do in life?

~  The biggest mistakes in our life is we never know how to learn to forgive.  To be forgiven is to forgive. 

Happy New Year 2011

2011

Hi peeps!!sorry n sorry again and again...leaving this page behind.  How I missed every beat of my posts.  Very weird that I'm forgetting my blog because I was too busy doing my farming.

Hrmm...i'm hoping that 2011 bring me more joyous n successful in life.  Forgetting the sadness, burning all the memories from 2008...

Meet you again tomorrow, will posting some pictures in 2010.

And not too late for me to wish you a blessed 2011 and may everything going soo well.

Luv ya!!!muahhhsss....

Move I Made

As we grow up, we learn that the one person who wasn't suppossed to let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's never easier the second time around. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend, and may even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry cause time is passing too fast. You'll eventually lose someone you love. Life is short, so take too many pictures, laugh way too much, kiss way too slow, cry way too hard, and love everyone.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it

Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life.

It's hard to accept, but I can't change the past. I can't go back and manipulate things to the way I wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But I can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, I will make mistakes. And yes, I will have bad days - but as long as I let the past go, I'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of me. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day I will learn something so that I keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that I have the chance I use something amazing from.

Worth the Pain

Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever

I'm sorry for all the meant things I might have said or done, for all the things I did or didn't do.  And if I ever ignored you, if I ever made you feel bad or put you down, if I ever thought I was better than you and for every mistakes I've ever done...

If there is any way for me to get to you again, I will take the chances without any second thought.  I will love you more as my feeling growing faithful for you.  If I can turn back the time and get all my past back, I will never let you down as what I've did.  For me, if I can only be myself again, to fall in love and being in love,  all my feeling for you will never be erased.  We met with a beautiful smile and we made a promise to each other that no matter what happen, we always be together.  But at some reasons we've broken the promises and it really in pain for both of us to keep the memory alive again. And today,  as I sit here thinking the scar you've giving me, deep inside me, I'm really hurt and for this I am regret, til my heart is broken into pieces even there is nothing left inside to make me love you back...

Sometimes, thru my journey in life I am so afraid of crossing the road.  I might get hit and I will not be able to stand-up strong again.  But when I look at the sunrise there is a courage in me to get on with my life even it is imperfect.  But by watching the sunset remind me of the brighten stars at night, the moon shining showing me when the night is falling the day will show-up.  The day is the time for me to forget all about you but somehow the memory of you remains deep inside my broken heart...

I am writing this because what if tomorrow never comes?  What if tomorrow you will never see me again, what if I never get a chance to say 'Good-bye' to you or give you a big hug that I really wanted too.  And what if I never get to say 'Thank you' and above all this I would like to say...

 'A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried'

Duhhh....Hellooooo....

I am not perfect! It's ridiculous to want to be perfect anyway. But then, everybody's ridiculous sometimes, except perfect people. I know what perfect is? Perfect is not eating or drinking or talking or moving a muscle or making even the teensiest mistake. Perfect is never doing anything wrong - which means never doing anything at all. Perfect is boring! So I am not perfect! Wonderful! Have fun! Eat things that give me bad breath! Trip over my own shoelaces! Laugh! Let somebody else laugh at me! Perfect people never do any of those things. All they do is sit around and sip weak tea and think about how perfect they are. But they're really not one-hundred-percent perfect anyway. I should see them when they get the hiccups! Phooey! Who needs 'em? I can drink pickle juice and imitate gorillas and do silly dances and sing stupid songs and wear funny hats and be as imperfect as you please and still be a good person. Good people are hard to find nowadays. And they're a lot more fun than perfect people any day of the week....

Frenzy

Hi peeps! we meet again...this was on Saturday afternoon @ Esplanade Miri.  The weather so damn good!!!

So many laughs through the years, and a few stories I hope no one hears, I'll always be by your side, best friends forever till the day we die...

Friends find the beautiful things in us an one else looks hard enough to find...

I live for the nights I can't remember with the people I'll never forget...

I believe in angels... the kind that Heaven sends, I am with them everyday, I call them my best friends...

My friend is one... who takes me for what I am...

Because of you... I laugh a little harder, cry a little less, and smile a little more.

Some people make the world special just be being in it...

True friends are the people who are there for you unconditionally. They are the people who never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for...

A friend is someone who smiles when you smile, laughs when you laugh, but holds your hand when you cry...

For all the times I never said the things I should have, I thank you for all the times you understood...

I'm learning that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean that you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories...

I will not drag you along. I will not leave you alone... I will stand by you and have my hand there for you to hold when you need to...

Someday we will look back on this, laugh nervously, and change the subject...

The things we hide, the tears we've cried - through odds and ends we've been best friends - even though time will pass - our memories will always last...

When the angels ask what I loved most about life, I'll say you...

The Reason Why I Kept All Inside

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If I could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

It's hard to accept, but I can't change the past. I can't go back and manipulate things to the way I wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But I probably can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, I will make mistakes. And yes, I will have bad days - but as long as I let the past go, I'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of me. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day I will learn something so that I keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that I have the chance I use something amazing from. So I grab hold of it.

Something Behind

Hi peeps!!we meet again. Hrmmm....this month I call it as a 'Worldcup Fever'.  Now, I'm watching Paraguay vs Japan...mins 75:04 still no goals from both side.  Uhhuuu....still waiting for the miracles' goal!!

Now, let us forget bout Worldcup for a few second in our life and think bout sumthing that hiding behind sumthing,  sum words laying in fantacy but standing in reality.  I know, life sumtimes can getting soo bored, coz I feel it too but that's how life is where we have to face day after day and perhaps year by year.  So, peeps, hear this :

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.

See I told ya, there is sumthing behind your life...so live as there is no tomorrow and never regrets what you have had.

Simple Word Big Mistakes

As I write, my own view and my own feeling.  I have said in word, in action and thru my smile, I guess it seems to flow from it.  All the active part of my life is occurred in a sort happiness.  I used to feel they were arbitrary acts which in some way out of control.  But now, with a feeling of waste and regret for opportunities missed, I begin to question this.  I doubt wether any action, above a certain level, is ever wholly dishonest?  I question now whether the personality is manufactured by the vision of others?  The personality hangs together.  It is one and indivisible.  You saw in me a kind human being.  And you are right.  You saw what was there but the truth is I will not always be as perfect as you think I am.  I am just as simple as you see even sumtimes life push me too hard, people taking advantage on me and killing me within.  I am no different from others who's been pissed-off by others, today you 'kill' me...tomorrow I will 'live'


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My Life is Up-To Something

        Normal can be so bored...This is Me

Hi peeps!!!  I'm writing again down here.  Have you realize that sumtime our life will be so bored if we live too normal??  Hmmm....so confused and my mind bcomes blank.  Have to sidestepped at this kind of moment.  Let us get to the point, ermmm...am I a gud person...hehehe...you don't know n I also don't know?? go and ask my fren.  Human being n automatically I'm a sinner...who never did huh?  If I am an Angel, I can see God...how I wish I can be one.  Hrmm...in my life I've kicked sumbody ass but still keep them as a fren....nice way to be remembered!!  It jus a simple matter of reminding myself of my priorities, pride and wat I'm up to in life.  I will always Forgive but I will never Forget!!  Wat I've done wrong, the mistakes I've made...I am sory but tis is all I can offer you...my Smile...=)!!

She is so 'messy' sumtimes but tats how she grow...My Precious

hehehe...no need to guess!! tis is...My Hub

I got kid, she grow up to be 5 next year...hehehe...next year seems to be a long way to go.  She is talkative...like me...hehehe...Luv her so much.  My hubb?...ermmm...he's one kind of person never talk too much or shud I say don't like to 'merapu'...tats a little bit why I like him.  The most humble person on earth...believe??  I'm also not too sure.  Hye, come to joke or 1 hour of conversation?? Nehhh...seldom...tis sumtime make me feel so dumb, I feel like a dummber stuck on a chair and looking at the wall....hahaha. Nobody will understand wats in his mind. Life is great!!! 

Look!!! how crazy they are..My Frenzy

My frens.  I can only show you 1 quater of them, got alot and mostly they are all funny and crazy. They are a gud people in my life.  They are funny, chicky and most of all down to earth.  When I'm sad, sure I will look for 1 of em, no need to know which one, keep it for myself.  My frenz and I, we know each other long enough, can say since primary, highschool and univlife.  They are jus them, they will never change, they stay who they are.  Being with them is the most 'happieys' moment in life.  Frenzy you are one of the best thing happen in me!!!

I am not perfect

Even today my English sucks

But I don't care

I write wats in my mind

I thot, I think and I feel

Have fun =b