The Written Heart

Heart Beat

Every time I wrote something on a paper, my heart start beating and the voice who are inside of me, keep asking ‘Are you sure’. What I know is, I want to write something that show how I feel. Then later again, I hold my face up in front of a mirror and spells ‘Help’ perfectly with my lips. Coz I know some people will think of certain that the words is a fake, for them it wouldn’t have been written in a manner in which it’s suppose to be. I understand but this is me, I express my feeling in every words that I think I have put it as a ‘perfectly in manner’. Every word must be some reason why that word was written. I can write anything I want it to be, but I will not locked in to past hurts and memories. Not if I don’t want it to be, I put my mind a little bit lower and talk to myself about all the things that are good about me. What make me do this is, I think I don’t have to wait for the right time or for the right person to come along and teach me how to think. At the same time, I will let some people to say anything as negative about me as I say all day in my heads, 'They have the right to do so!". But I would defend myself for every second of my life and I'll fight back.

Happy Birthday Eylea

Her name is Cathaneylea Harveynea and 27 February 2009, she's 3. She's a good girl, talkative, active, ceria and beautiful! As a mother I'm proud to have her.

Cathaneylea Harveynea the Birthday Gurl

I Believe

I believe for every drop of rain that falls, a flower grows

I believe that somewhere in the darkest night, a candle glows

I believe for everyone who goes astray, someone will come to show the way

I believe above the storm the smallest prayer, will still be heard

I believe that someone in the great somewhere, hear every words

Everytime I hear a newborn baby cry, touch a leaf or see the sky

Then I know why I Believe

Demi Cinta

Maaf, ku telah menyakitimu

Ku telah kecewakanmu

Bahkan ku sia - siakan hidupku

Dan kubawa kau s'perti diriku

Walau hati ini t'rus menangis

Menahan kesakitan ini

Tapi ku lakukan semua demi cinta

Akhirnya juga harus ku relakan kehilangan cinta sejatiku

Segalanya t'lah ku berikan

Juga semua kekuranganku

Jika memang ini yang terbaik

Untuk diriku dan dirinya

Kan ku t'rima semua demi cinta

Jujur, aku tak kuasa, saat terakhir ku genggam tanganmu

Namun yang pasti terjadi, kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

Bila nanti esok hari

Ku temukan dirimu bahagia

Ijinkan aku titipkan kisah cinta kita selamanya

Saint Michael the Archangel

War of the Sons of Light Against the Sons of Darkness

Roman Catholics refer to him as "Saint Michael the Archangel" and also simply as "Saint Michael".

The Roman Catholic Church honors Saint Michael with four main titles. He is the Christian angel of death, carrying the souls of all the deceased to heaven, where they are weighed in his perfectly balanced scales (hence Michael is often depicted holding scales). At the hour of death, Michael descends and gives each soul the chance to redeem itself before passing, thus consternating the devil and his minions. St Michael is the special patron of the Chosen People in the Old Testament and is guardian of the Church; it was thus not unusual for the angel to be revered by the military orders of knights during the Middle Ages. Last, he is the supreme enemy of Satan and the fallen angels. In the War of the Sons of Light Againts the Sons of Darkness, Michael is described as the prince of light, leading forces of God against the darkness of evil, who is led by Belial. He is described as the "viceroy of heaven", a title that is said to have formerly belonged to The Morning Star.

The Saint

Meaning of Saints in Latin word is Sanctus. They are a human being just like us, who has been called to holiness. In Roman Catholic, a Saint is generally one to whom has been attributed a high level of holiness and sanctity. Therefore, a saints is not simply a believer, but they are one of whom has been unusually transformed. There are about 10,000 Roman Catholic saints. Formally and the older term for saints is martyr, meaning someone who would rather die than give up their faith, or more specifically witness for God. Saints are described the whole of Christian witnesses, both martyrs and confessors.

In Catholic theology, since God is the God of the Living, then it follows that the saints are alive in Heaven. As "special friends of God" they can be asked to intercede or pray for those still on earth. A saint may be designated as a patron saint of particular causes or professions, or invoked against specific illnesses or disasters, but this is only in popular thought, and is not official Church doctrine. They are not thought to have power of their own, but only that granted by God. Relics of saints are respected in a similar manner to holy images and icons. The practices of past centuries in venerating relics of saints for healing is taken from the early Church. The veneration of saints is sometimes misunderstood to be worship, in which case it is derisively termed "hagiolatry". The God be the glory, Great things He has done.

Saint Padre Pio of Pietrelcina

Prayer for the Intercession of St. Pio of Pietrelcina

Dear God, You generously blessed Your servant, St. Pio of Pietrelcina, with the gifts of the Spirit. You marked his body with the five wounds of Christ Crucified, as a powerful witness to the saving Passion and Death of Your Son. Endowed with the gift of discernment, St. Pio labored endlessly in the confessional for the salvation of souls. With reverence and intense devotion in the celebration of Mass, he invited countless men and women to a greater union with Jesus Christ in the Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist. Through the intercession of St. Pio of Pietrelcina, I confidently beseech You to grant me the grace of (here state your petition). Amen.

Glory be to the Father... (three times).

To see him resting so peacefully it's hard to believe that he died 40 years ago

St. Bernadette

Her body was buried, only discovered 30 years ago. After church officials decided to examine it, they discovered her body is still fresh until today and if you go to Lourdes, France, you can see her body in the church in Lourdes. Her body isn’t decomposing because during her lifetime, the Mother of Jesus would always appear to her and give messages and advice to all mankind on the right way to live on this earth. Many miracles have taken place in this place, Lourdes and still do until today. These pictures show St Bernadette’s body after 122 years.

Incorruptible body after 122 years ago

Parents' Wish

I've lost my parents in my young age. When I come across the net, I found this 'wishes', this is the most beautiful things that I ever seen. For those who still have parents, mummy or daddy, do respect them and appreciate them. You will never know how does it feel, when they left you behind. Everytime, I read thru it, it make me cry...

Parents' Wish

On the day when you see us old, weak and weary, have patience and try to understand us.

If we get dirty when eating, if we cannot dress on our own, please bear with us and remember the times we spent feeding you and dressing you up.

If, when we speak to you, we repeat the same things over and over again, do not interrupt us, listen to us. When you were small, we had to read to you the same story a thousand and one times until you went to sleep.

When we do not want to have a shower, neither shame nor scold us. Remember when we had to chase you with your thousand excuses to get you to the shower?

When you see our ignorance of new technologies, help us navigate our way through those worldwide webs.

We taught you how to do so many things, to eat the right foods, to dress appropriately, to fight for your rights.

When at some moments we lose the memory or the thread of our conversation, let us have the necessary time to remember and if we cannot, do not become nervous as the most important thing is not our conversation but surely to be with you and to have you listening to us.

If ever we do not feel like eating, do not force us. We know well when we need to and when not to eat.

When our tired legs give way and do not allow us to walk without a cane. Lend us your hand, the same way we did when you tried your first faltering steps.

And when someday we say to you that we do not want to live any more, that we want to die. Do not get angry. Some day you will understand. Try to understand that our age is not just lived but survived.

Some day you will realize that, despite our mistakes, we always wanted the best for you and we tried to prepare the way for you.

You must not feel sad, angry nor ashamed for having us near you. Instead, try to understand us and help us like we did when you were young.

Help us to walk, help us to live the rest of our life with love and dignity. We will pay you with a smile and by the immense love we have always had for you in our hearts.

Let My Words Stand

Born to be a selfer

Thru years, I had tried to give myself a personality, being me, have my own image without duplicating others. It was something I had tried more than once before and waited for response in the eyes of others. But now, I have already found myself, the truly me and my ambition become clear and not faded. I will never look back to the thing that left me with so much pain until it almost collapse me. I am strong with lot of confident in me. I am tough with lot of courage in my heart. What ever it take, I will face it. But, I wondering how could anyone who gone thru the pain in life, fail to know the meaning of it and fail to know me? But I guess, it's my faith and yours. And what does faith give me? My word is Everlasting Life. We live in an open world; we become what we see of ourselves in the eyes of others. So, by this I've make-up my mind that I should keep away my wondering question and leave it without answers. In this stage of my life, I will follow the path, the stage between my preparation to accept something but not everything, and finally my withdrawal from it. I should call it a Period of Patience.

Starbucks Bekenu

Fuhhh....this is interesting! Nek tok bole tak org nemu adik bradik starbucks kat jalan nuju bekenu. Sapa2 nok gian dgn kopi starbucks time nuju rah Kuching ya, bole la cari kede tok. Really, the standard of living is really upgraded la.

Main door of Setarbak Kopi...

The customers lepak2 outside

Hihihi...the layout of the shop, erkkk...watch out what they sale next to the Setarbak Kopi shop

A Wife

Being a wife is not that easy, everyday more and more questions will come to your life and some of it, will left you without answers. But the responsible is there, always there waiting for you. I've categorize my life into 3 circles.

Circle 1: From Monday to Friday, 8am to 5pm, in the office. Then after office hour, drive back, reach home, rest for a couple of minutes with a cup of melo or tea, day-dream a little bit. Later, entertain the children before cook dinner for the family. At 8pm, watching TV, explore the net and do some blogging. Half-past midnight, feel tired, then go to sleep. Morning at 6am, wake-up. Before going to work, clean the house a bit, washing some dishes, machine the cloths and put everything in place. Start the car engine, vroommm....office here is your slave!!

Circle 2: Weekends - Morning: Clean the house, entertain children, go to the market and cook for lunch. Afternoon: do some baking, ironing cloths and do gardening a bit. Going out with frens only if the time is really free or got some other activities. Evening: prepare for dinner. Night: Watching TV, explore the net and blogging. This can be called a full-time attachment housewife huh?

Circle 3: Back to circle 1 and 2. And it will be repeated again and again, for the rest of my life.

Who should be blamed if you are not doing well in some part of your life? Imagine that, you become a wife to a husband that sometimes hardly wanna listen what you are trying to say. The lack of conversation between both of you. Yes, sometimes, you feel like you talking to the wall. But the different is; wall is better coz you can paint them as what colour you like. But can you paint your hubby? Imagine for a moment you painting them, with a zebra colour. Erkkk!hihihii...it should be called a revenge of a women! Well, definitely NO and what ever the situation is, he is still your hubby, the man who you've already choose to spend your entire life with. Whatever you explain about your point of view, he will not listen. He is "The Head of the Family", this is what we normally categorize them. To avoid argument and crisis, listen and obey what ever he think is right. You keep the silence voices inside you. The point is, let get it straight, what ever type of hubby you got there; husband is a husband, No Compliment.

Ikan Kegemaran Anda

Just wanna share something today and for guys ofcoz. This is quite interesting email I've received from one of my frens who work with Sarawak Government at Kuching. Thanks Grace!

Jika wanita diumpamakan seperti ikan, kategori ikan apakah yang menjadi favorite anda?

Ikan Salmon

Bentuknya OK, indah, dagingnya pink muda dan enak dimakan. Tapi sayangnya mahal, soalnya masih boleh diimport. Sesuai, ada nilai dan kualiti.

Ini Wanita Bekerjaya

Ikan Arowana

Yang ini kalau di aquarium memperlihatkan kesombongan dan keangkuhan kerana tau tubuhnya indah, langkahnya lemah gemalai dan memancing mata nakal melihatnya di manapun dia bergaya. So pasti harganya mahal kalau ingin memilikinya.

Ini Peragawati, Celebriti or keatas

Ikan Mas Koki

Ini jenis ikan lumayan mahal, indah bentuknya, warnanya dan lenggang-lenggoknya. Sayangnya hanya boleh dilihat, dikagumi, tak boleh dimakan kerana termasuk kategori ikan hiasan.

Ini Bini Orang

Ikan DBKU

Jenis ini murah dan selalu menempel di kaca aquarium. Kalau sudah menempel, susah sangat nak lepaskannya, macam gam.

Ini Perempuan Alim, Anak Ustad

Ikan Keli

Ini harganya murah, boleh dimakan dimana saja. Banyak dijual di tepi jalan, harus hati-hati.

Ini Awek Tepi Jalan

Ikan Bilis

Bentuk dan rasanya gitu-gitu saja. Selalu sedap dimakan kalau tidak ada sayur atau tidak ada lauk yang lain.

Ini Bini Sendiri

Valentine's Day

Every year on 14 February, people around the world celebrate Valentine’s Day. For me Valentine's is every day, even during my single life by helping Rumah Kebajikan. The meaning of valentine for me is very universal, it’s not all about love for your special ones but it's for all ages; your parents, friends and families. Coz the main reason is about Love. I still remember on my youth year, where I create a Valentine’s Card by myself, hoping that he will keep it as a memory even when our relationships turn into nothing. And I know he still keep it. Now, I’m in my marriage life, I don’t ask anything from my hubby during valentine, but what I hope is he will love me for who I am, as I accept him for what he was. Well, that’s my own opinion about Valentine’s Day.

And the history of Valentine, we should know, for me to love something is to know the history. Valentine’s Day is a patron saint day. Catholic Church recognizes at least 3 different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom are were martyred saints of ancient Rome. This means there are 3 different Saint Valentines, but all of them is martyrs and mention in the early martyrologies under the date of 14th February. 2 of the saint lived in the third century A.D. by 1 being a bishop of Interamna (now known as Terni, Italy) and the other is a priest of Rome. But some speculate that these 2 figures were actually the same man. Saint Valentine, according to romantic legend, he was a kind-hearted Roman priest who married young couples against the wishes of Emperor Claudius II and was beaten and beheaded for his deeds on the 14th February.

A Prayer to St. Valentine
Dear Saint and glorious martyr, Teach us to love unselfishly and to find great joy in giving. Enable all true lovers to bring out the best in each other in God and in God in each other.

My Valentine's Prayer for My Hubby

"I Love You" the 3 little words that I will never lie. From the heart and the mind you are the one He create for me. He sent you to me to erase my pain, to be my shoulder to cry on. When I was down you were there for me. Never will I regret you. Today, by accepting the way you are is the greatest gift that I've given you. As the stars shine when the dark night fall, as my love for you will shine until the last day of my life

~ YuNNa ~

My Valentine's Prayer for My Ex's

I've "Love You" once. Once mean on the day we are in love. The day we're holding hands and watching the star thru the dark night. Where the moment we talked about how much we love each other and you promised me you will love me forever. Time pass-by and we're apart. I accept what happen between us coz I believe love dosen't really mean together. I never regret and never will I hate you when you let me down and left me in the dark. Today, the love that we've shared is history, will be kept as a memory. Now, I pray for you, that you will always be happy with someone new in your life

~ YuNNa ~

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

~ by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.
~ by Anonymous ~


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres

~ 1 Corinthians 13:4 ~

The Smacker Downer

I’m a fan of WWE. I got my favorite wrestlers and will never miss their action on the ring. Watching wrestling make me feel so excited till I forget my problem. And it released me from stress.

The Undertaker - Here Come The Pain
Mark William Calaway, better known by his ring name The Undertaker. Born 24.03.1965, Houston, Texas. H: 6' 10.5" W: 299Ibs. He has contrasting gimmick, Deadman and the American Bad Ass.


John Cena - You Can't See Me
John Felix Anthony Cena, better known by his ring name John Cena. Born 23.04.1977, West Newbury Massachusetts. H: 6' 1" W: 240 Ibs. A World Heavyweight Champion and has released the rap album 'You Can't See Me', which debuted at #15 on the US Billboard 200 chart. He also starred in the movie The Marine.

Goshh....He look cute without his mask

Rey Mysterio - 619
Oscar Gutierrex, better known by his ring name Rey Mysterio Jr. Born 11.12.1974, San Diego California. H: 5' 6" W: 156 Ibs. A Maxican American. Famous for having a high flying style and the most skilful wrestler in WWE.


Goldberg - Believe The Hype
William Scott Goldberg, better known by his ring name Bill Goldberg. Recently seldom seeing him in the wrestling world. I've watched one of his movie 'The Longest Yard' where he starred as Battle with Adam Sandler. I really love the movie so much, even it will never boring me after watching 5 times a day (hehehehe). This movie features inmate at a prison who play American football againts their guard.

Well by 'huk' o by 'cruk' they are my very favorite wrestlers in WWE.

Memoir of The Great Geisha

The Imaginary Geisha

On the beach where the memory she held with him. And she was there with him on one sunny day with the open breeze of the sea. One of those days will never been track by the memoir that she created in her life as one day it will fade away. She held it very tight in her heart.

One day, she says a little prayer. Listen to her heart, where does the voice come from? The deep voices keep whispered to her, telling her the story of the truth and the lie. She was on her knees, catching at one of her hands, holding it and drawing him in front of her.

She stood for a while without moving. As like the raw of earth not yet grown over and the newly cut of her, were dumb. There was like no answer on earth to what had become of that strength, suffering and misery that she felt over all of the feeling. All that he had been to her was held in her memory till that memory extinguished in that very soil moment.

What that other of her was raised, it would tell the world so little. So little to be explained by word or mind. And how would they word it? A dumb, silly and stupid. She start not seeks to see the future of it, for it had no longer any importance to her. What she saw was with an eyes of her imagination but in no vision.

Eylea Cupcake

My little girl keep requesting me to make cupcake (she saw in the book). So I just give it a try (to be considered as my first cupcake). So, during my baking 'session' (wasehh!!!) she watching me and after all been done, she's helping me put some 'sugar rice' on the top of the muffin and she did it very well. See below please;

Have a bite, have a cupcake

Ready to serve

Before baking

Crumpy Cheesecake

I forgot to post it last week. This normally known as the 'Crump Cheesecake' I baked last Sunday. And it's delicious too coz everybody like it very much.

Crumpy Cheesecake

Cheese and custor sugar

The crumper digestive

The Emotional Secret

An Emotional Depresso

As we know, the more grow-up we are the more experience we will be. Being a student then graduate, attend an interview then get the job, being hurt then frustrated and fall in love finally get into marriage life. It’s all the stage of life and everyone will go thru. With or without our realize life experience will be emotional at a glance, consciousness, it’s like a flashlight in a storm. It shows the way out of emotional entanglements.

The first few steps, ask ourselves ‘Where will I shine my life?’ If I shine it on how I can serve someone, then I can really enjoy the feeling. But this happen only as long as we making a difference and we are in control of our own life, control of our imagination and thoughts. But the minute the attention will slips out of our control and starts roving free, seeking out little painful feelings in us, we begin to worry. Worry what would some other people think of us and why? The question will always linger in our mind until one certain time we will get depressed and frustrated. We depress on what we have done and all the way down we feel frustrated on what we did.

Once I have lost my independence. But on the way back I was thinking that my emotions are mine and not other people. I’m the one who control myself and not them. For me they are valuable and full of fresh sincerity. Sometimes, I go back over the past too much, without knowing what will happen to my future. Past is hurts and bring problem in our mind coz we carry them around us. But we contaminate our relationships normally into this way. Now I think it is best to understand it backward by looking back throughout the history of it than by the memory. When I dragged myself into my past, it makes me so emotional till I can’t control my anger. But later, I figure out I have to give it away rather than to keep it. And give time to myself to discover what the true meaning behind all these.

After all life is life, nobody will know what will happen to the future. And past is past, everybody will remember the history.

Landslide in Miri

Second landslide happened in Miri on 30 January 2009.