The Written Heart

Heart Beat

Every time I wrote something on a paper, my heart start beating and the voice who are inside of me, keep asking ‘Are you sure’. What I know is, I want to write something that show how I feel. Then later again, I hold my face up in front of a mirror and spells ‘Help’ perfectly with my lips. Coz I know some people will think of certain that the words is a fake, for them it wouldn’t have been written in a manner in which it’s suppose to be. I understand but this is me, I express my feeling in every words that I think I have put it as a ‘perfectly in manner’. Every word must be some reason why that word was written. I can write anything I want it to be, but I will not locked in to past hurts and memories. Not if I don’t want it to be, I put my mind a little bit lower and talk to myself about all the things that are good about me. What make me do this is, I think I don’t have to wait for the right time or for the right person to come along and teach me how to think. At the same time, I will let some people to say anything as negative about me as I say all day in my heads, 'They have the right to do so!". But I would defend myself for every second of my life and I'll fight back.